Monday, May 11, 2009

Yes !

                       Nishita looked out of the window, far beyond...taking in the vista and a Mona Lisa smile made its appearance on her face. What was it that made her heart beat today with a rhythm it had played years back ? Well not that she was totally euphoric but man there was this 'something' which was enigmatic. O.k. not the time to analyse she said to herself, what the heck ? Enjoy it baby ! She made for the door, collecting her car keys, goggles, purse, cell, house keys,..Uh ! why can't one just leave without all these, she wondered.
                        She reached the party just in time, her friend had arranged, just a get together of familiar friends. Sujay and herself had been long term acquaintances with personalities that clashed rather than match. He was brilliant, could steer any conversation in the direction he wanted to, was witty, quick to roll out facts and figures and sometimes dominated the talks. She contradicted everything he said but of course it was genuinely done. She knew he didn't like it. The Male factor... she would tell herself. He must get a woman boss she would think and then watch the fun. No he would quit the same day, he was like that. God ! how many times they had clashed while talking about women CEO's in the private major financial institutions. Not that she had something against men but she just couldn't stand anyone pointing at the female species. 
                           Yesterday while coming out from the Multiplex, she found him standing besides her and for some strange reason he stood there for a long time, not moving an inch and on top of it, they weren't arguing ! She felt like there was some unknown power that was making her stand there and not move too. Why ? And suddenly a sentence caught her ear and gone was the feeling as she heard him saying things like 'Emotions are silly, one must be logical in approach towards life etc, women are emotionally wired...' But somehow she didn't retort thinking no use in wasting energy to make him 'understand' her species, her kind. At times like these she preferred 'girl's company. How sweet, how reassuring, how comfy it was with them, you didn't have to explain your emotions. It was understood. But why had she felt like that few moments ago? And today at the party, she found him besides her once again. What was going on? Yes ! now she got it. Usually they would be standing opposite and talk or they would be sitting opposite to each other. He still spoke the same things that caught her nerves but stood besides her every time he spoke. Hey ! what's with standing, sitting at sides girl ? O.k. she said, 'Accept it. You like this new arrangement and continue whatever you were up to like before'. She was fiercely independent and liked to have her own space and sometimes felt as if he was intruding ! It was confusing ! She had learnt, 'If you are confused, don't think too much just keep on going, after few days everything gets sorted out without your presence'. Flow was the key. She knew he could be snobbish at times, sometimes he appeared conceited to her, like 'Darcy' in Pride and prejudice perhaps? Oh ! there it was, her favourite classic and things got clear. He possessed some genuine human attributes which hell ! yes did attract her like that day when he helped an elderly lady to fetch a seat in a restaurant or the way he handled her friend's son who was practically yelling. And today when she broke away from the group because she found his presence overwhelming, she felt at peace. She knew he would never do something like 'proposing' or even say the three musical words, because he didn't believe in them, and she was the perfect 'maiden' never to go first, things would be as they are: togetherness in distance...

4 comments:

  1. Hmmm The Mars-Venus divide is it? Confounding and Irritating all at once.

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  2. Is there an aspect of your self in this story? The struggle for "independence" and "space" vs. "surrender"...

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  3. Confounding and irritating- yes and also fun K !

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  4. Some part of me in the story ? Well IQ, yes and no !

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